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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

nothing much really

haven't really been blogging coz i've been trying to stay focused on working on my portfolio. but apparently the cold i'm suffering from is not helping. i've basically slacked the entire past 9 days away.

12 - 13 mar
had a throat so sore that it hurt to swallow my own saliva. believed i missed out on quite a bit of nutrients as i was trying to soothe my throat with water, water and more fluids.

14 - 18 mar
the sore throat metamorphosized into a phlegmmy cough. unfortunately for me, i do not know how to expel phlegm. i do not know how to spit it out. what muscles am i suppose to use? i'm dumb ok.

it was a torturous 4 days. still is really. but it's a great deal better.

18 - 19 mar
the pain in the throat returns. but it's somewhat better when compared to the pain that haunted me in the beginning. but lo! i've lost my voice

19 - 21 mar
i've finally experienced losing my voice. i've never really lost my voice due to some viral/bacterial infection (i've no idea what i'm down with since i insist on self-medication. i see no point in paying for medication and advice from a gp when i can get less potent medication that does the same as prescribed medication at a fraction of the price and listen to generic advice that advocates rest and plenty of fluids. been there. done that. i know i need rest. i know i should drink lots of water. so why should i pay to let you tell me that?) so it's quite a kick. but i was starting to miss my voice.


today
feeling somewhat better. but i haven't worked on my portfolio!!! damnit. i've been online for the past.. three hours and nothing! all that webcomics..

damnit. there has to be more to life that all this mind-blowing slacking. there should be some purpose to my life. there ought to be some aim. i'll get off and look at far sights for a while. my eyes are hurting from staring at the screen for so damn long.

i'd better get some stuff done tonight.

i swear. i will not blog till i get the current thing done. heaven knows when that'll be. damnit it all.

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

constipation/disposition + tanya's cd

constipation/disposition

i think i might have found a link between constipation and my disposition. my usual disposition could be described as somewhat lackadaisical, with an occasional spurt of whim/enthusiasm. up until today, i've yet to discover the reason for my languidness, i'm experimenting to see if i can find a solution. some stuff i'm trying out:

- exercise (experiments have shown that swimming depletes my energy, and yoga is rather
invigorating)
- iron supplement (don't really think i'm taking in sufficient iron in my diet since i don't exactly have an inclination towards red meat)

anyway, as my supply of energy is rather limited, i find myself practising the conservation of energy. hence my perpetual eternal state of lethargy. but still there's sprinkles of energy here and there now and then.

but constipation.. i think it smothers whatever little sparks of energy i could possibly have deep down buried far far away. i rather think it transforms me into a more complete walking zombie. totally unempathetic*. and just pretty much detached from the surroundings despite living within the surroundings.

and bananas are apparently my solution to constipation. yes, bananas. what a beautiful fruit it is. i never knew how much i love bananas. seriously, regular bowel movements make me a less horrid person.


tanya's cd

"D <-- my crooked wide smile i've received my tanya chua cd! i took part in some lucky draw contest which spanned a month/four weeks/28 days. answered four questions related to tanya chua, mailed a postcard and i managed to get picked for a cd!


tanya's latest mandarin album. it's mine!

it's.. the second time i've received something from a lucky draw i think.

the first time i emailed for a kaneshiro takeshi movie poster. the poster wasn't that great, he didn't look as gorgeous as usual, and his face is damn small (the poster held his entire body! argh... pretty face.. shrunk!) but it's my one and only movie poster-sized poster! and it's autographed! and now it just hangs rather precariously over my bed, and getting more oily by the day coz i "hung" the poster using blu-tack. should have framed it up. ok.. one day.. when i've the money. to think one email gave me that much joy.

and this time round, i have to admit i'm pretty impressed that i'd remembered about the contest despite it spanning a month, and that i'd bothered to log on to the net to find answers for the questions. i don't think i'll have the same luck with the new contest (where they're giving away jay chou vcd! faint!)

when i heard i'd won, i felt glad and somewhat dubious. well, i'd wanted to get the cd coz it comes bundled with a vcd of her latest mtvs which stars my current celebrity crush. that was the whole point of getting the cd. her songs are nice, but there are other cds out there that i think i would enjoy more. i only wanted to own the vcd that features my celebrity crush of the moment.

since this is a prize, i was wondering if they were going to give me just the cd itself. and after one week, the suspense is finally over! i got the thing that they're selling in the stores! ie the cd + the vcd

the cd/vcd were a little manhandled by the postal staff, the envelope it arrived in was torn for heaven's sake, the cd case is cracked and nearly half of the little plastic prongs that holds the cd (right in the centre of the case, set in a ring) broke off. sigh.. but as long as the cd's fine, and the vcd's fine.. i'm glad. ")


evidence of manhandling: missing prongs

and now i've money to cut my hair! la la~





sorry.. the picture's a little big but if i make it smaller, the resolution won't be as good.. it's just a picture trying to convey my joy at the thought of the impending release from the weight my head is carrying. yes, i have heavy hair/thick hair/a lot of hair (as i quote from my past hairdressers) i just hope i won't look like a boy again..

now it's time to watch the vcd! la la~




*i would like to apologize to those who learnt of their exam results today. i should feel happy for you guys. but i'm way too constipated and deprived of sleep to muster up some form of emotion for you guys. gomen..